I am lying in a bed beside her and staring her sleeping face with mixed feelings. This is the first time any girl decided to stay back in my lonely flat where I am preparing for UPSC. My mind is flooded with intense care for her which has encouraged me to provide emotional, financial and all kinds of study related support to her. I have started enjoying her company. In less than 2 months my sympathy turned into a love for her.
Today, she has come to my flat again, I am excited!! She is sitting in front of me. I ask her,
”Shall I express my feeling of love”,
” You want to say this to me?”, she asks.
“Yes”, I nodded.
“I have no such feelings for you”, She replies dryly. Shocked!, I burst into tears. She stops me from crying. I ask her to give her hand into mine, she gives and hugs me tightly. I am becoming more emotional.
After dropping her to the nearest metro station, I got back to my room and cried. I sent a text to her about the pain and my desperation for her. Inside I am feeling rejected. The disrespect and rudeness from her broke my heart. It’s been 4 days of sleepless nights, I am lying in my bed looking out of the window, glaring the half Moon, wondering if God can make me come out of this misery.